These artifacts are a collection of inspirations, early drafts, ideas, research and mementos created and collected during the process of making each new work.  

Memory Lapse was created in 2014 After months of research and collaborating with composer Bryan Curt Kostors. These are some of the artifacts associated with it’s creation.

This is an nearly completed draft of the then titled Memento section of the Music. Laurie created a jam packed solo for the gorgeous dancer Megan Pulfer to this inspiring work

Famous Quotes about Memory used for inspiration:

“I have learned that if you must leave a place that you have lived in and loved and where all your yesteryears are buried deep, leave it any way except a slow way, leave it the fastest way you can. Never turn back and never believe that an hour you remember is a better hour because it is dead. Passed years seem safe ones, vanquished ones, while the future lives in a cloud, formidable from a distance.”

Beryl Markham, West with the Night

“It is strange how we hold on to the pieces of the past while we wait for our futures.”

Ally Condie, Matched

“I think it is all a matter of love; the more you love a memory the stronger and stranger it becomes”

Vladimir Nabokov 

“If you wish to forget anything on the spot, make a note that this thing is to be remembered.”

Edgar Allan Poe

“I can only note that the past is beautiful because one never realizes an emotion at the time. It expands later, and thus we don't have complete emotions about the present, only about the past.”

Virginia Woolf

 “The advantage of a bad memory is that one enjoys several times the same good things for the first time.”

Friedrich Nietzsche

 “The pleasure of remembering had been taken from me, because there was no longer anyone to remember with. It felt like losing your co-rememberer meant losing the memory itself, as if the things we'd done were less real and important than they had been hours before.”

John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

“If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.”

Mark Twain 

“The Greek word for "return" is nostos. Algos means "suffering." So nostalgia is the suffering caused by an unappeased yearning to return.”

Milan Kundera, Ignorance

 “But who can remember pain, once it’s over? All that remains of it is a shadow, not in the mind even, in the flesh. Pain marks you, but too deep to see. Out of sight, out of mind.”

Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid's Tale

 “There was a long hard time when I kept far from me the remembrance of what I had thrown away when I was quite ignorant of its worth.”

Charles Dickens, Great Expectations

 “Just remember that the things you put into your head are there forever, he said. You might want to think about that.

You forget some things, dont you?

Yes. You forget what you want to remember and you remember what you want to forget.”

Cormac McCarthy, The Road

 “Memory believes before knowing remembers. Believes longer than recollects, longer than knowing even wonders.”

William Faulkner

“It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards,' says the White Queen to Alice.”

Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland & Through the Looking-Glass

 “When you remembered to forget, you were remembering. It was when you forgot to forget that you forgot. ”

Ann Brashares, Forever in Blue: The Fourth Summer of the Sisterhood

 “What greater thing is there for two human souls, than to feel that they are joined for life--to strengthen each other in all labor, to rest on each other in all sorrow, to minister to each other in all pain, to be one with each other in silent unspeakable memories at the moment of the last parting?”

George Eliot, Adam Bede

“What you end up remembering isn't always the same as what you have witnessed.”

Julian Barnes, The Sense of an Ending

 “There either is or is not, that’s the way things are. The colour of the day. The way it felt to be a child. The saltwater on your sunburnt legs. Sometimes the water is yellow, sometimes it’s red. But what colour it may be in memory, depends on the day. I’m not going to tell you the story the way it happened. I’m going to tell it the way I remember it.”

Charles Dickens, Great Expectations

 “...when pain is over, the remembrance of it often becomes a pleasure.”

Jane Austen, Persuasion

“Time's the thief of memory”

Stephen King, The Gunslinger 

“I know what you are learning to endure. There is nothing to be done. Make sure nothing is wasted. Take notes. Remember it all, every insult, every tear. Tattoo it on the inside of your mind. In life, knowledge of poisons is essential. I've told you, nobody becomes an artist unless they have to.”

Janet Fitch, White Oleander

“The life of the dead is set in the memory of the living.”

Cicero, Philippics

“Memory is a mirror that scandalously lies.”

Julio Cortázar, Around the Day in Eighty Worlds

 “Hope and Memory have one daughter and her name is Art, and she has built her dwelling far from the desperate field where men hang out their garments upon forked boughs to be banners of battle. O beloved daughter of Hope and Memory, be with me for a while.”

W.B. Yeats

 “She had lost all our memories for ever, and it was as though by dying she had robbed me of part of myself. I was losing my individuality. It was the first stage of my own death, the memories dropping off like gangrened limbs.”

Graham Greene

“Monotony collapses time; novelty unfolds it. You can exercise daily and eat healthily and live a long life, while experiencing a short one. If you spend your life sitting in a cubicle and passing papers, one day is bound to blend unmemorably into the next - and disappear. That's why it's so important to change routines regularly, and take vacations to exotic locales, and have as many new experiences as possible that can serve to anchor our memories. Creating new memories stretches out psychological time, and lengthens our perception of our lives.”

Joshua Foer, Moonwalking with Einstein: The Art and Science of Remembering Everything

“...unfortunately, it's true: time does heal. It will do so whether you like it or not, and there's nothing anyone can do about it. If you're not careful, time will take away everything that ever hurt you, everything you have ever lost, and replace it with knowledge. Time is a machine: it will convert your pain into experience. Raw data will be compiled, will be translated into a more comprehensible language. The individual events of your life will be transmuted into another substance called memory and in the mechanism something will be lost and you will never be able to reverse it, you will never again have the original moment back in its uncategorized, preprocessed state. It will force you to move on and you will not have a choice in the matter.”

Charles Yu, How to Live Safely in a Science Fictional Universe

“It is strange how we hold on to the pieces of the past while we wait for our futures.”

Ally Condie, Matched

About forgetting

“It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.”

Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

“Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.”

Oscar Wilde, The Canterville Ghost

 “Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.”

J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

“There's things that happen in a person's life that are so scorched in the memory and burned into the heart that there's no forgetting them.”

John Boyne

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“MEMORY'S SO TREACHEROUS. ONE MOMENT YOU'RE LOST IN A CARNIVAL OF DELIGHTS, WITH POIGNANT CHILDHOOD AROMAS , THE FLASHING NEON OF PUBERTY, ALL THAT SENTIMENTAL CANDY-FLOSS ...

 THE NEXT , IT LEADS YOU SOMEWHERE YOU DON'T WANT TO GO...

 ...SOMEWHERE DARK AND COLD, FILLED WITH THE DAMP, AMBIGUOUS SHAPES OF THINKS YOU'D HOPED WERE FORGOTTEN.

 MEMORIES CAN BE VILE, REPULSIVE LITTLE BRUTES. LIKE CHILDREN, I SUPPOSE. HAHA.

 BUT CAN WE LIVE WITHOUT THEM? MEMORIES ARE WHAT OUR REASON IS BASED UPON. IF WE CAN'T FACE THEM, WE DENY REASON ITSELF!

 ALGHOUGH, WHY NOT? WE AREN'T CONTRACTUALLY TIED DOWN TO RATIONALITY!

 THERE IS NO SANITY CLAUSE!

 SO WHEN YOU FIND YOURSELF LOCKED ONTO AN UNPLEASANT TRAIN OF THOUGHT, HEADING FOR THE PLACES IN YOUR PAST WHERE THE SCREAMING IS UNBEARABLE, REMEMBER THERE'S ALWAYS MADNESS.

 MADNESS IS THE EMERGENCY EXIT...

 YOU CAN JUST STEP OUTSIDE, AND CLOSE THE DOOR ON ALL THOSE DREADFUL THINGS THAT HAPPENED. YOU CAN LOCK THEM AWAY...

 FOREVER.”

Alan Moore, Batman: The Killing Joke

“Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '97:

 Wear sunscreen. 

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

 Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

 Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

 Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

 Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

 Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

 Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

 Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

 Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

 But trust me on the sunscreen.”

Mary Schmich, Wear Sunscreen: A Primer for Real Life

Concert Walls was commissioned by the Music Center as a site specific work for Moves After Dark at the Walt Disney Concert Hall. Artistic Director Laurie Sefton envisioned a work that could not be experienced in it’s entirety without multiple viewings. Original live music composed by Bryan Curt Kostors.

Early Demo of the score:

A complex work due to the space. A great deal of planning of the flow of dancers was required.

Laurie’s notes

Laurie’s notes

Page 23 of the written score:

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Planning the Audience Traffic flow:

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Early Choreography and attempts at the wall walking section with dancers Ellen Akashi, Isaac Huerta, Sophie Diamond and Clay Murray.